I feel a little gloomy
although today I had the luck to spend a few hours trying to find something popping up from darkness
and although I still have the luck to dream and hope I’ll be able to leave a mark, even a thin one, on this world that will be “enlighten” by The Eternal Light.
Despite all, I already decided a life course,
that appears to be the opposite of the one that should be, but, this it the only possible good one at the moment…
therefore I’ve to complete my work, to complete what I’ve started 3 years ago (and I’m already late).
Completing this work might mean to never change direction, but surely it means, now, to drop the camera for a while… to keep it always beside me and ready to sh3oot, because I do need it to “breath” and go ahead… but being ready only for taking pictures if “something comes” and stop looking for that “something” for a little while…
Tonight I probably saw the end of the last day of “freedom to look for”, that’s why I feel a little gloomy but, only a little.
Today sunset said me “Stop playing with the camera and go back to your real work”, but it told me in a kind and comfortable way.
As that little star wanted to tell “it’s not ALL over when sun goes down”…
I know, this happen at every sunset, but that’s the one I’ve been watching to for 1 hour and half peeking out from a narrow window of the small attic of my brother’s house.
Once again I was being stuck by narrow spaces but, today, I was feeling free because I had the freedom to look around, to see sky around me.
Posted January 3rd, 2010. 2 comments
There’s an Italian saying “La gatta frettolosa ha fatto i gattini ciechi”, of which a translation could be “The hasty mother-cat gave birth to blind kittens”.
It’s just a saying to tell “If we let hurry win on the quality of what we do, the result won’t be perfect, and might miss some “important details” “.
Indeed, yesterday night this sentence came up to my mind before going to sleep. I knew I hadn’t been able to dedicate enough time to what I have been studying, therefore I knew that “I needed a LOT OF LUCK to get really high marks”.
At the end. Today I got a good mark but, as thought the previous night, not the aimed and this made me being a little complaining.
Some complaint-results:
Mom and bf said: “It’s good” (When they were students they were both used to really high marks, therefore they understand my bad feeling)
Daddy (he has a degree in physics too) came home and said: “SO?”. I didn’t want to tell him the mark, mom told him it. And he said: “GREAT! Congratulations!”. I started my complaint and he said: “EH? Are you kidding?! Nuclear physics in about 15-18 days and getting that mark is good!” 
A friend said:”Hooray!” and then defined me “Miss I-complain-anyway”… 
Ok, maybe they are right and “my kittens” are not totally blind. They probably just need powerful glasses!
Meaow! 
Posted October 29th, 2009. 2 comments
Good things happens, often… we just have to focus on them!
You may, eventually, take a picture of something of nice that you have the chance to see…
You can do it just for fun or for the personal pleasure to preserve the memory of such a cute thing…
Than can happen that a friend send you a message via cellphone saying: “Hey! I have just read about this photographic contest… why don’t you try?”
The pictures are already available, you have just to have them printed…why shouldn’t you try? It cost nothing.
And then can happens another pleasant thing, the woman in the shop where you go to have your pictures printed reminds of you because she liked the cat picture. And then, you just have to let your mind fly back to 10 months before, when that woman, about 10years older than you, asked you the permission to see the picture with the black cat…
And she asked you with such a sweet smile and a light in her eyes that are typical of those well-mannered children who ask for the permission of doing something (that, you know, it isn’t bad).
And you cannot stop thinking about the sentence: “[...] unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven”… and how it can comes true just looking at the Beauty of this world.
And few days later, happens another nice thing… your boyfriend spend a whole afternoon of his life to let you reach the place where you have to leave the pictures for the contest.
And few weeks later, while you are going to get furious because it’s not clear where you have to go to listen to a lecture, your cellphone rings, you don’t know who is calling but you answer… and someone tells you “Are you miss L.?”…and after you confirm your identity he keeps on saying: “I am the president of the E. cultural association, I am calling you to tell you won the first prize…”. At the end of the call you thanks, and then you spend the rest of the morning thinking:”What!? I won something? It’s incredible!”.
And it’s then that all your friends and relatives who knows about the news cannot stop smiling and enjoy the nice event with you!
And if with those money you can finish to pay your iMac to your parents (who paid in advance), if you can contribute to buy a new laptop to share with your boyfriend (laptop for which you were already saving money), if you can buy a little present to the friend who told you about the contest, and if you can give a little help to another one…who is, now, helping you even if he doesn’t know your plans… all with just those 500€…well, trust me, winning becomes just a background of a series of wonderful aspects of your life, as friendship and love. These are all “things” that you cannot put in just a picture with your camera, but that can make you go to sleep smiling.
And if you won the the same contest that one of your relatives read about, but didn’t want to tell you about it in order to avoid you waste your time with such an useless thing as photography… well, the thing feels a lot nicer! ;D
I love to talk about love and friendship, especially on Wednesday
16th September 2008.
I went with my boyfriend to take some pictures to the ruins of a roman amphitheater that there is in Catania (hopefully pictures of this will be uploaded tomorrow night)… well, I guess that the first lesson of that day has been: “Taking pictures to monuments isn’t something you should keep doing”. Indeed, I enjoyed more to take pictures to some kittens that had their “house” there.
These little cats gave me the chance to take a lot of pictures and of different kind: from the happy to the gloomy type.
Today, I choose a picture, that, according to me, belongs to the second group… or at least, it seams so to me and I feel kinda of “represented” from this kitten.
This little guy was peeking from its home to see if it was safe to get out, its siblings did alike but this one was probably the most prudent kitten… soon later, I set with my camera a little further and I started to watch and wait.
All the kittens came out 3 or 4 times, giving me the chance to take some nice shots. Later, alas, came a numerous group of tourists that scared the little cats a who run to their home.
After a few minuets my boyfriend showed me that there were grids on the floor, from these grids you could see parts of some tunnels… the cat of the picture was watching us, at a first moment I thought to take another picture of him staying below the grid… but, seemed like the cat was in prison, so I gave up the idea to take this picture and I went away in order to leave at peace the little cat.
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New Gallery online: “Animals”—>”Cats”. Hope you’ll enjoy it.
Posted April 30th, 2009. 3 comments
