Looking different.

Partially out of focus.

All like this picture taken two years (minus a day) ago:

This “big” change that I won’t describe to not bother you, became possible when on Sunday my brother took at “his house” the big table and all of his pc and stuff that where still in his room here.
This created a lot of space and with mom we decide to take that big pianola and place it in his room, that will come back to its previous use of “studio” and it will be more used than just staying on a shelf covered by a sheet.

This pianola kinda represent one of the biggest failure of my “childhood”, I smile at this because I guess it’s normal. I wanted to get back learning how to play a piano. I say “get back” during my first grade I studied piano but  it was very difficult to fit this with school homework, and probably I wasn’t that good either, thus I gave up.
When I was 13 or so I said to myself that I could study it all by myself, but once again I gave up after a few months and placed that pianola on the shelf where it spent most of the days of the following 9-10 years.

At least, now, in the studio me or my daddy could go there playing something of very simple for a few minutes, it might be relaxing for us. I think that at the it’s always better than just letting it on the shelf. If someday I find a friend who needs something like that and really deserve it I think I’ll have a great pleasure at giving it to him/her, but I fear there is nothing of special in it and it’s already pretty old.
I mean, it has the “cool” chance to use the “midi”. This makes me smiling a little. I’ve no idea about modern “pianola” but I guess they won’t use midi.

I’m feeling old!

BTW. More space, new use of shelves, that are mainly covered by books now (before there were mainly toys) and more space in the “lower” area of the room.

I ended most of this cleaning up on Wednesday, the same day I’ve started doing what I’ve been doing all the day today.

Converting into mp3 file old CD, especially Irish and Gregorian music to put them on my mp3 read, and mama’s MacBook that when she heard about of me turning CD songs into mp3 files came with about 5 or so CD I’ve never seen in my life of amazing music related to Gregorian music and her new computer.
In the meanwhile I’ve installed in her computer Skype and Google Notifer and made her creating a skypename. We, children, can be a big danger for parents ^_^

I’m also cleaning up ALL my pictures. It’s something I’m always doing but today I started doing it more seriously.

I wonder if this need of getting new spaces, setting things differently, sending away from “my main area” all those things that I don’t use and recall something of annoying is a sign of something. I mean, I wonder if my big attempt of definitely cleaning up my stuff (both virtual than physical) is just a signal of a bigger desire to put order in my life and in my mind.

I don’t know, but even if at times it all feels like an enormous challenge, I’m sure I feel way better each time I complete one of these minor “changes”

And I love how during these days I’m discovering a lot of old amazing things, like old good shots that I took in the previous years but, at that time, I wasn’t able to “deal with” them.
It leads me to other thoughts but I wrote too much for the moment.

See you tomorrow.

(Well, actually I need ground and plenty of water too )

I’m doing this to create a folder of “nice desktop for computer”, 2 mac book and a hp tablet pc. I don’t think I need to explain how felt strange finding very first pictures like some cyclamen shots like this

I’ve ignored this picture when I’ve taken it… probably because it’s not great and it doesn’t have the “black background” I love to create in flowers pictures.

I’m liking this shot a lot today and I’ve decided to place it among the “possible desktop”.

The questions always the same “Was I right then? Am I right now?”
The answer changed in: “I don’t care I’m liking it and I think it’s enough”.

I think that day daddy decided to buy that orchid because the following day was my 18th birthday. When we were paying our plants the lady owning the “flowers and plants shop” told me: “I want to just tell you that this plant probably won’t bloom the next year”.

For the following 4 years (till May 2009) it kept on blooming and showing her best flowers at the end of May.
It was always great, it was like “receiving” a present that brings hope.

This year 2 orchids didn’t bloom, one was even without leaves and we thought that probably mine was the dead orchid…

Few minutes ago I’ve gone out on the balcony to check if the clouds were rain clouds or not, and I saw an amazing show:

For the 6th year of its life, and the 5th time that it wasn’t supposed to bloom, my little orchid did it!

At the moment there are “just” two flower and the leaves seems not in their best shape, but it still rocks!

That’s one of those little events that can cheer up me for a whole day ^_^

This really “crowded” orchid is a present I was given by the webmaster.
He gave me it saying “I’m sorry”, the day after we had a terrible argument. It was early June 2008.
We were both so upset and frustrated that probably we both thought we were going to break up.
A friend of mine, who lives in Texas, helped me to calm down and this made me finding the strength to overcome that problem.

This is the 3rd year the orchid is making flowers.
Till last year it did flower along a vertical branch, that died and it made growing this horizontal one. It’s probably due to the fact that the plant gets sun mainly from that direction.

I love this year “flowers configuration”, especially because there is JUST ONE orchid differently oriented (rotated of about 90 degree on the right).
It makes me smile because it seems it didn’t want to be hidden by other orchids and it’s seeking for more light.

On the right there is the “dead body” of my very first orchid that I bought for my 18th birthday and did flower for 5 years. It’s dead now.

That’s what I think when I look at this plants, the little story of the last years of my life.
A common life of a constant desire of eternal Love and Beauty.

Yesterday wasn’t really sunny so I did play too much with lights in picture editing. ^_^

Today I wondered if that can be called something like “The Vatican rose”?!